My theme this year is IVF/ICSI, a process we’re starting at the moment and today it’s K is for Knocked Up.
If you’re going through the entire IVF process, you’ll be doing it for one reason; the desire to be knocked up. Or to put it rather more nicely, because you would like to get pregnant and ultimately have children. The phrase ‘knocked up’ fits the letter K far more neatly for the purposes of the A to Z Challenge. This isn't an announcement of any kind. Not yet anyway!
Getting pregnant is your ultimate goal, but it’s actually quite a far off one when you begin having IVF. The whole fertility treatment process is a whole series of hurdles; first you’re building up to getting started with all the tests and waiting for your period (one of the only times you’ll ever be looking forward to getting it); then you’re hoping to get to egg retrieval and actually get some usable ones; then you’re waiting for those eggs to fertilise and grow before they’re put back in; then for embryo transfer; and finally for the (hopefully) positive pregnancy test.
It’s easy to forget that at the end of the day, you’re doing all this for the little person who will hopefully join your family. There are so many things you have to get through before you get to that point that sometimes it’s just easier to focus on the here and now; the here and now being injections and blood tests and scans with everything else just a distant speck of light that you’re hopefully going to get to see in greater detail in the future.
There’s also an aspect of not wanting to get your hopes up too much. Obviously you want this all to end in a nice round baby bump and a screaming bundle, but if you’re anything like me you’ll probably try not to think about that fictional future too much. It’s almost like you’ll jinx your treatment.
This time around I’m slightly more jaded, since the original cycle had to be cancelled before retrieval, I’m trying to keep myself grounded while at the same time be cautiously optimistic. It’s a confusing state of mind to be in and it’s one that’ll only get more confusing once I start taking the syringefuls of hormones.
And that’s why, if you’re friends with someone who is going through the IVF process, try and focus on the things that are going on right now, rather than the hypothetical baby your friend will hopefully be cuddling next year. Hopefully there will be plenty of time to discuss baby clothes, nursery options and when they’ll return to work once the baby is born in the future. For now, just hold on and wait for the next mood swing. ;-)