Wednesday 12 April 2017

#atozchallenge Letters to my Embryos: J is for Journey

Welcome to Day 10 of the A to Z Challenge, an April blogging challenge where you aim post every day during the month following the letters of the alphabet (with every Sunday bar the last one off).

In the past I've used the challenge to blog about my infertility and the IVF process. I'm following a similar theme this year as we wait to begin the process for a Frozen Embryo Transfer, having completed a Freeze All IVF cycle in February.

We currently have nine embryos sitting on ice, my little bubbles, and this April I am blogging to them about the process of how they came to be.



Dear Bubbles,

Excuse me if I get all metaphorical and drippy for a moment. But getting to you was a journey. More than one journey in fact, a series of journeys.

It took us over nine years to get to the point where you were conceived and while you were our ultimate destination, we can't forget all the things we went through along the way.

If you had come along back when we first started trying (roughly nine years, four months, twelve days ago) then we wouldn't be the same parents that we are now. If you had come along when we had our first round, or our second round, or one of our previous frozen transfers, we wouldn't be the same parents that we are now.

Maybe we would have been better. Maybe worse. Maybe we wouldn't have appreciated you as much for all the bumps in the road we had along the way. Maybe you feel like we ask too much of you, or we're too overprotective.

I hope you understand that it's the journey we took to get you which made us who we are today. And in turn, our journey has made you who you are.

And we wouldn't have it any other way.

All my love,

Your Mum.

18 comments:

  1. I hope the journey is ultimately a successful one!

    Aj @ Read All The Things!

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  2. Journey teaches us many lessons, most important one is patience.

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  3. What a journey this particular embryo has in front of him/her. Go get 'em!

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    1. Definitely, I can't wait to be a part of it. :-)

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  4. I get such a warm feeling from this post. You've definitely all grown from this journey.

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  5. Visiting from A to Z. Fortunate are the children who are truly wanted, whose parents fought every step of the way so they cold come into existence. May your journey be everything you wanted, and much much more.

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  6. Nine years is such a long time. Best wishes for the new journey that is about to begin!

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  7. It is all a journey, isn't it?

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  8. How do you feel like your "expectations" of your baby and your role as a parent have shifted over the years?
    JOURNEY makes me think of the one that begins after the birth. Let's take one step at a time, though!

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    1. I think way back in the beginning I had lots of plans. I thought 'this is the best way to do this thing and that's the way I'm going to do it'. Now I feel more relaxed, if one way doesn't work, there'll be another. If my child doesn't want to do something I'm hoping they'll do, it's not the end of the world. I wouldn't say I have lower expectations, they're just different and probably more realistic now. :-)

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  9. Your journey is their story. They are so lucky you are recording it for them.

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Let me know what you think. :-)